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My Miserable Life: A Compendium of Suffering

Wanna see the most pathetic stories in the web? check that link above, I swear people, instead of being such a cry babies and writing pathetic stories, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!!

In the words of one of my favorite comedian, Denis Leary: LIFE'S HARD, GET A HELMET!!!

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That odd familiar feeling

The other day I wrote that I wanted to feel like I felt before, god I was only remembering the good feelings (pretty obvious, nobody wants to remember the things that hurted you). I thought that way until a few minutes ago, when while checking my Yahoo mail account, I found out an old email from an ex, that mail was writen after the relations ended, that mail made remember how I truly was and how I am now, god, I dont know why I wanted to go back there, *feels a shiver down his spine* ggrrr, I never, ever want to be like I was at that time, I better kill myself firts before...

P.S. The shivers where true, actually I just felt them again.

23 seconds and you can ride the express to hell weeeeeeeeee

Sinfest Comic 06/08/05

I love sinfest, I just do, damn that Tatsuya Ishida is GOOD!!! :P

Random Porqueria

How fo you feel?
As feel as bad as hell
Then why do you do it?
Cuz I want to be better...
You have to be better...
You need to be better...
Yes...

Mmmmm

Its the same shit again, im soo getting tired of this, it happends like this:

Me: *writing a short story* Mmmm ok, ill leave it here, im going nowhere with this story.
days/weeks/months passes
Me: *angry as hell* Wheres that damn notebook!!! Now that I have the idea to keep writing, I cant find the f*****ng notebook

The story of my life...

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I need a job + I want a digital cam = Desperation ON

That's right, today I went to Liverpool and I saw this awesome Sony digital camera, 5.1 Mpixels, slim as a credit card, well, not that slim, but still pretty slim, I WANT IT!!! I NEED TO HAVE IT, MUST HAVE IT, MY PRECIOUSSSSSSS... erm, hmm, I like it a little bit.

Other thing I need desperately is a job, any job, whatever, well, not whatever, god damn...


/Sad

Sometimes

Sometimes I wake up and try to reach you, of course you are not there...
I got up, take a shower and go out to do all my normal things.
I have a normal family with normal pets.
I go to a normal school, with normal classes, with normal teachers and normal homework.
I have a normal life.
A perfect normal life.
God!! How did I let this happend?
The very things that brought me to this normal, wich I thought that was what I needed to let go, to grow up.
Well, let me tell you this, growing up sucks.
I want back that feeling of uncertanty.
The feeling that I was on a perpetual adventure, it is a little draining but, now it really worts it.
I want to worry too much again, about everything, too feel more things, once a friend told me that when you get to a certain age, you notice that your passions dont drive you that much, it sucks honestly.
Growing up makes a lot of things clearer, its a very good thing, but sometimes it sucks pretty bad, this is one of this moments.

Would I, Could I

Would I, Could I...
Would You, Could You..
Stay the whole month without drinking & smoking?
Would I?
Could I?

/thanks dr. seuss

A Noddle Cup...

A hot cup of Maruchan made me think:

trying to save you from yourslef is so useless.
Those chains that you put on yourself.
Those chains that restrain you.
So pathetic.
So desperatly calling for help.
And Im always runing for that cry for help.
So pathetic for myself too.

Its so easy to see.
You hate me cuz you want to.
Cuz you need to.
Cuz you see in me what is lost in you.
And you hate me for that.
For what I have.
For what I am.
And for that, you cannot forgive yourself

How horrible it is to see what you were in the mirror and what you were before, was better then and what you are now is so despicable that the only thing you have left is to break the mirror... Even if I am a mirror shattered I still feel sorry for yourself.

How sad.

P.S. I havent started to eat my cup of Maruchan, not even a sip.

Cultural Anthropology, Weird Al and Jedi Knight Robe Part 1

I must say this day was one of the most intresting I had in quite a few time now, I remember today at 1 am. helping Rianne with her assigment of "What is a human" in her own words

"I want to answer the question..."what is the human?"...looking at it from like..um.... i want to talk about it...in relation to the importance of language, story, symbol usage,....then from freuds idea... u know...the ego and the id.... and then look at it....from rene girards idea...of....humans ..as desiring beings, u with me?"

Fuck!!! I mean, if she can find that answer, I mean the universal answer, man I rest peacefully, come on, somebody shoot me, I dont care anymore. Beside if she is gonna use Freuds theories wich by the way, I heard that they are beign discarded these days, I think its cool, but I also think is a thing I couldnt care less (freuds theories), the guy was in love with his mom, please, but anyway Im think im rambling more than usual...

I found a very good subject to read about and I think its a must for all, Cultural Anthropology, for you who dont know, Anthropoly is the study of the man and all the things related to him, me as a knowledge entusiast (also known as geek) think that its one cool subject to read about.

I also found out today, that jedi robe is a cool thing to wear, Imean with all the hype and stuff like that I think it should be a fashion item for a cold weather hting that here in Hermosillo we know nothing about.


As for "Weird" Al Yankovic, I must say that he is one hell of an entertaiment I would sure pay to see one of his concerts, the sad thing is that after the concert I would have to erase my memory cuz It would make me piss my pants cuz of the laughter everytime I would remember his perfomance...

Way too dangerous...

And then the bull reaches for his gun, a revolver, and blows the head of the bullfighter
The horse applauds and all the arena goes silent for a moment, then they as for the ear of the bullfighter as the present for the bull, they only find half of it, cuz the bullet entered directly in his left ear, and going out at the half of the other ear...

The lesson here, bulls are dangerous enough by the themselves, and now they have guns? Dont put a fight with them...

Years later I heard the bull had some drug related problems, he ended up in court for possesion, I dont know if he got out of that one, apart from that I havent heard anything of him.

Me a junkie?? Hell no!! A responsible junkie please...

"I envy you, cuz you don't have the crave to smoke, I do envy you"

Those words felt good, honestly, I realize now that I don't need to smoke, hell, I know that my anxiety problem can be diverted to another thing, if I know it, why don't do I do it?? How fool I am, I don't need to complain about everything, I can do whatever I want, proud words indeed, but so far I've never had to swallow those words...

One more thing, Broken wings, the closing theme for Trinity Blood, rocks!! Thats all...

Nostalgia

Last weekend I spend a few hours in Tijuana, a total of 12 hours in a city when the travel
time is aproximately 12 hours, I went to pick my new car a Stratus 2001, a real beauty, but
I didnt pick it up, cuz it wasnt ready so I will get it this saturday, honestly it was the best thing for me, I dont have to drive it all the way through Hermosillo.

Changing subjects, cuz honestly, I dont want to talk about the car, until I have fully tested my car, I want to talk what happened in my way to Tijuana, cuz I spend a lot of hours awaken, on the way back Im sure that I spent 10 hours sleeping in the bus, did I mention that the only time I sat down was when I ate chinese food and then in my aunts house before leaving to take the bus back? But im missing the point here...

A funny thing happend to me on the way to Tijuana, I was listening to Laura Paussini's new album, in spanish of course, I like her, I admit it, so now fuck off and let me finish this story. On my way to Tijuana I was listening to her album is a nice album, calm, nothing too loud and with good lyrics for a pop album, that album took me back to nicer times, where feeling where more raw, where passion was overwhelming, better times indeed.

I remember a gril I followed to another state, just to see her 3 hours, man I woulded payed my soul to another 3 hours, those 3 hours I spent with her, changed my life and now that she is in pain I wish I could do something to help her, I have something to show to her, that maybe it'll help, im sure it wont make much difference to her, but I know that when she gets well emotionally speaking she will realize the value of the words she would read.

So, if you are reading this and you know who you are, you'll soon see what I mean...

Apuestas

Mi primer post en espaƱol en buen rato, el beto dice que va a dejar de fumar, yo digo que si lo hace, pero como puso una apuesta de 100 lanas a ver hasta cuando, yo digo que hasta que terminen las vacaciones, aver que pasa...